Dual lives
One filled with striving, excelling and confidence
The other layered with fear, angst and overthinking
Keep the struggle inside.
Don’t let them see the whole of who you are
If they only knew, what would they think?
Rejection and judgment perhaps
Or quiet disengagement?
Facing your fears daily
Is riddled with mental gymnastics;
Stop thinking, no don’t stop thinking
Actually, allow the thinking
But externalize it, wait no
Just accept it as part of you and
Don’t resist it.
And then maybe it will go away
Or maybe it won’t.
Exhausting…..
Can I be like this little butterfly
With her metamorphosis and ease as she
Flutters around the sun?
She soaks up the heat
Pulling in this moment close.
Can I finally integrate all of who I am and
pull into this moment
And trust?
